Dr. Phil Weight Loss Journal: Thursday, 21 August 2003
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Daily Goals:
Get up at 6:30. Review what I’ve read in the book. Cardio, shower, eat and leave by 9am. Go through mail and work and join the gym and do weights
Daily Log from what I read in Dr. Phil’s Book:
This is a review of what I have previously read. I thought I would breeze through the book but noway.com I’m inhaling every word and taking my time!
I so identify with that sense of urgency and panic that immediately begins once I make a decision to start a diet. When I got home I felt the “panic” about wanting to make sure I get this right once and for all. So my number one lesson I will take from this review is to set goals, plan and not merely think the benefits will fall upon my person without effort. This is so totally different to me because this journey I have begun is not a diet at all. The weight loss will be an incredible side benefit to the lessons I will be learning and incorporating into my life (the 7 keys).
I thank GOD for Dr. Phil and for the group discussion in the house on Friday morning where we were discussing what if one of us doesn’t make it…wherein I turned to Angela and said quite forcefully “Angela….you don’t know what has happened in any of our lives, while I would venture to say no one has endured the trauma that you have don’t think that you’re the only one!” I couldn’t believe I said that….I literally thought Damn, where did that come from!!! From the point on and for the rest of the day I dwelled on how I reacted and it was only then I allowed myself to think about my childhood…once that first memory came back the Pandora’s box was open and it was wave after wave of the pain, the fear, the horror of what I endured from the father I loved so very much. Even now I think I was so grateful I was able to forgive him for it and when he passed in 1997 there hadn’t been a day that went by we didn’t talk to each other and we both said how much we loved each other when we did talk. BUT, I never allowed myself to think about it so I could exorcize the pain from my life and allow myself to heal. Nor did I realize just how much what had happened 25 to 38 years ago could affect my life so much today.
Thank you so much for giving me that!
I am now taking the bull by the horns and actively filling this open vessel I became at the house with the right information, the right habits and ingraining them so into my being each and every key will be perfected into me like breathing. I’LL GET IT…FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION and MONIKA BARKLEY WILL BE IN THE 80% WHO SUCCEED!
Since Saturday morning, 16 Aug, I now look in the mirror, calmly and smile…give myself a high five and say Hi Mony it sure is good to be ME! I’m holding my head up and not grimacing for once in I don’t know how many years. I’m damn proud to know me…and nope “there has never been another me in the history of the world, and there never will be. I am uniquely designed and gifted, with a core purpose for being in the world. That was God’s plan” and now it is mine!
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